I feel as if I do not know you anymore. I am agnostic. In this place of not knowing, I sit and wait, wondering if you really are, and if all I ever dared hope about you and your love can possibly be true. You claim to show yourself to people like me. All I can do is look for you and wait for you. But how long? How long? ------ How long, O Lord? Will your forget … [Read more...] about Agnostic

A single silent scream launches with sudden violence from my inner depths and rockets toward the distant steel blue sky. And for just an instant I can see white jet stream forming a vapor link between my stricken heart and you. ------ I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit. Job 7:11 from Heaven at My Door by Juanita Ryan … [Read more...] about Desperate Prayer

Praise the LORD. Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty heavens. praise him with tambourine and dancing, praise him with the strings and flute, Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD. Psalm 150:1,4,6 Sometimes we suffer not only from denying and suppressing grief, but also from denying and suppressing joy. Joy, like grief, is a physical … [Read more...] about Dancing and Shouting for Joy as Prayer